~Squiggle-Girl

So, I've decided that new computers are hazardous to your health. I've been spending way too much time online recently. lol Partly because i have been given an unhealthy amount of free time, and secondly, don't have anything to fill the time up with. So, the results are obviously, more deviations, and this journal. lol so, life has been interesting... well that's a lie, it's really not that interesting, jsut different, but that is to be expected. Graduation is this week and you are supposed to feel this great sadness for leaving all your friends and some kind of excitment for 'starting your life', but I really don't feel either of those, so possibly I am suffering a ceribral malfunction.

For instance, i find myslef thinking 'why am i sad to be leaving people who have virtually ignored me for the last four or more years, and if they weren't ignoring me, they were mocking me' personally I think it is a fair argument. Also, all the people who i actually care about, I intend on seeing again and keeping in touch with, so I don't get the sadness. Also, why am I sad to finally be free of teh bomb shelter/prison that is the hell hole of Goddard High School?

Also, you are 18 when you graduate, right? then why the fuck did you wait until you were 18 to start your life? there is something seriously screwed up with our society when we teach them that they don't have to be adults until they get thrown into the real world. Shouldn't you have been doing things that matter and accomplish something in the last 18 years of your life? if you weren't then what was the freakin point? Seriously, what a waist. you taken up space and used perfectly good oxygen to accomplish absolutely nothing that has anything to do with anything. please ignore me in my rant, and feel free to skip ahead, but I have a feeling I am on to something.

have you ever noticed how completey useless some people are? they can't seem to take care of themselves and they definately can't seem to accept responsibility for their actions. The other one I hate is that the kids with the best grades are kids who were only ever taught to study and do nothing else. ahlf of them have no lives and if they do, they only mess around. ya know? people are all impressed cause they can memorize the dates for major battles in WWII but they haven't managed to do anything else. Rather obnoxious if you ask me. And then to cap it all off, they are honored more than the kids who were active in church, sports student govt and kept a B average. We just have all of our goals completely screwed up. Priorities are definately not this generations strong point.

So, on a happier note, I have decided on my next obsession, since Key Club is over. I am going to work really hard to get ready for Drum and Bugle Corps auditions in the fall. it should be great. look them up! totally amazing!

so..... I think that about sums up this journal entry. I'll try to think of something else to right very soon so you don't have to stare at this for months on end again.

ps- has anyone seen the pictures of the new Twilight movie? OMG totally fantastic! can I have emmett please? lol